Bad news

Sorry to those of you I made wait for hours for this update, but the ultrasound this afternoon confirmed our fears - there is no longer anything going on in there. So there was just one and it didn't survive.

Needless to say we are pretty upset. We'd had all week to prepare ourselves, but had managed to hold out some hope so were disappointed and frustrated. I'm glad I didn't go for a blood test earlier in the week because it was good to find out together in a direct conversation with Dr. Teaff, and to find out at the start of the week-end when we get a few days to deal before I have to be with people.

Dr. Teaff has suggested a new set of blood tests to look for any possible things that might cause miscarriages. As miscarriages are fairly common these tests aren't usually ordered unless a woman has two or even three in a row, but she said we should just go ahead and do them in my case because we don't want to waste any time and don't want to waste the last two frozen embryos if there is another problem. I'll have that blood drawn next week, but some of these tests are complex and will take a couple weeks for the results.

We are going to take a little time to look at our finances and our calendars to figure out when we can go back to Brno.

Thanks everyone who was worrying and waiting anxiously with us. We really do appreciate all the love and concern and calls and notes. Maybe next time ...

Bad Week-End

Unfortunately, I had a lot of cramping and other problems this week-end and am pretty sure one baby is lost. We are just hoping there is another one in there and that it is tough and hanging on.

Its going to be a tough week waiting for the ultrasound on Friday afternoon to see if its all over or not. We are trying to be optimistic and positive, but we are also sad and worried. We are holding out some hope but bracing for bad news.

On a cheerier note, we had a nice visit with Mom and Dad this week-end, and I was glad they were here while I was going through everything. We did some house projects and I'll post pictures soon.

Beta Test 4 !

The number today was 13,700. So that is good news. It has tripled in four days so that is great growth rate. I think I was off on my day count before and that this is day 41 or 42. So this HCG count keeps us in the very bottom of the twin range.

I'm still nervous because I've had some spotting and cramping yesterday and today, but I'm trying to rest and be optimistic. We have to wait a whole week until the ultrasound, but hopefully it/they will continue to grow!

Beta HCG test three

My HCG level today were 4400, so not quite doubled from Friday's 2500. It is supposed to approximately double every three days. So we are a little nervous that it didn't increase more, but I guess the important thing is that it is still increasing. Based on the chart I posted a few days ago, this sounds more like a single baby instead of twins.

I have an ultrasound scheduled for a week from Friday. So that will be 7 weeks and we'll find out everything.

The nurse said they didn't need me to take any more blood tests between now and then, but that if I want confirmation that the numbers are still growing, I am welcome to call and come in. She said this two week wait is almost as stressful as the wait between transfer and test for some women. So I may go this Friday or next Monday, just to be sure the levels are still increasing. Especially as the number wasn't quite as high as expected today.

Miran's week-end

In other news, we woke up yesterday morning to a neighbor ringing our doorbell because a big branch had fallen from our tree and was blocking the road. The guy managed to pull it out of the road but left it across our driveway. So Miran spent the first hour or so yesterday morning chopping it up. Even though its a city owned tree, we decided not to call and to just take care of it ourselves because we didn't want them deciding to take the whole tree down.

And today he practiced fathering a little bit by playing with Ava, the daughter of our friends Angela and Sri, with whom we had brunch. She loved him and cried a little when he finally handed her back to her mother.